Instar

In the middle city

Driven by one million heartbeats

I found myself too patient in chrysalis 

And once transformed I saw

The small molt of my previous self

Uncomfortable and rigid 

1:30 AM

The lone shriek of a coyote rings out
   and is repeated before the first echoes die.
The deep base of the domesticate rhythmically
   responds,
 relentless
     and
        unanswered.

Firestorm

Wake up to the alarum of a phone.

My home, my city's burning down. 

A city built with hedonistic bones 

Never worries about ghost towns. 

But tonight God decided to restart 

And threw matches into dry shrubs. 

The neighborhood eerily fell apart  

As fire ravaged country clubs. 

Surprisingly egalitarian, 

The rich and the poor fled for life. 

New converts, new humanitarians,

Shed their belongings and their strife.  

We survived and slipped into our old ways.

Let it burn again!  Rid us of malaise.

Modified sonnet.  Firestorm '03, '07, ...

I've Come Home

It's never simple,
It's never easy,
To change yourself,
And believe that you're really free.

But I made it
to the finish line.
My friends are here,
and all the glory's mine.




I AM VALKYRIE. I RIDE THE VALHALLACADE.

I realized this morning why I lost some mutual friends in "the divorce." We may have been mutual friends but they only ever saw me around Ray and I was a boring little accessory.
So if you're reading this and you never hung out with me one on one or away from my favorite parasite, you should give it a go. I'm pretty fucking awesome, if I do say so myself.

Also, my other attributes include being The Queen of Everything and Nature Princess. So if you like the idea of hanging out with aristocrats, I'm like the dirty version...literally the one who gets dirt under her fingernails and slogs through marshy patches for weird mushrooms specimens.

In other news though, I kept some of the best people I met through ray. SO suck on that. The roomies, Reeves, Jesse and even a bear chose to be free with me because I'm downright peachy keen.


I'm finally me again and I laugh all the time and tell myself I'm beautiful everyday. Finally, I believe I'm the hottest shit around. It feels so good to be self-confident again. You all should try it.
Lastly, life feels like love when you've found your passion. I found mine outside under the vast blue sky in gorgeous Southwestern California. :)