So I went down to my local apothecary, and I picked up a gram of organic 20x salvia. What I got was a small plastic vial, which is filled with black torn up leaves.
It is scary. I had no visions. There were no planes or waving flags, rivers or drinkable paths. It was like I was being sucked into a world inside my head. Like I was inside my body but no longer in touch with it at all. It's a very queer and uncomfortable feeling. It's scary to let go and hope your body, without your brain, will remember to breathe. And I never actually disappear or black out. I keep breathing too. But its almost like I forget as soon as I think. It's like I no longer have a brain to think with and I can only receive information but not process it.
I found myself laughing on my second hit, mostly because I was slurring, there was a camera, and I was nervous. The laughing became real laughs and then a fit. I almost peed myself so I ran to the bathroom trusting that my body would remember the path that I had run in the pitch black of the middle of the night so many times before. I made it to the toilet and even managed to put the seat down. Suddenly I found myself sitting on the toilet with my pants down. I stand up and look beneath me. Hm. I think I was peeing. I pull up my pants and flush. I pull them back down because I find myself standing in the bathroom. I must be here for a reason. Maybe I need to pee. I sit back down. No. This isn't right. I don't have to pee. I stand back up and pull my pants back up. I stop, questioning my actions then continue. I forget to wash my hands and walk right back to the bed.
THAT IS NOT AN EXPERIENCE I WANT TO HAVE WHEN I AM USING RECREATIONAL DRUGS. this shit is weird. It wears off fairly quickly but you also get a tingly feeling all over your body. It doesn't feel nice tingly, it's annoying tingly. I also feel like my eyes don't work quite right on it. It is incredibly intoxicating but not at all addictive. Salvia is weird man. I wanted to try it to know what it was but fuck, this shit is weird. Why bother! I do not regret taking it. I just don't think I'll try it ever again. The vial is still almost completely full. It's a little bit ridiculous. I'm not sure what I'll do with it yet.
Update:
I watched the video that I took. When I went to the bathroom you hear me in a gigglefit. It goes quiet then again laughing and I remark "This is crazy!" I walk back into the room, stand there confused for a moment then decide that the bed was an adequate perch. Quote: "Everything is cray-zay. I can't handle-I can't handle it right now. PFWAHHHAHAHAhA" I had to keep trying say "apples for dinner. spaghetti." Apples and spaghetti as words, apparently, do not mix. It had all the best sounds in it for my malfunctioning mouth. "I can't even handle myself right now. I hope this isn't it reacting to Ritalin. That'd be crAAAzy. This must like what it is to be crazy. I feel like a retarded kid."
Best quote for a description: "I feel myself trying to leave. I know what people are talking about." *very slurred*
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